Moody Meow

Liberal, lunatic lassie, with mood swings and foot-in-mouth syndrome

Needing Green

Posted on | April 17, 2006 | 9 Comments

I fell in love with bricks and history. With the El and having friends close. With Clark’s and the neat shops that dot the streets like punctuation in long sentences. But why am I pushing for Chicago? Is it the wisest choice? I’ve taken the idea of the Windy City and run with it. My desperation to get out of Florida drives me fiercly. I want out. I need it. But, to where? All this time in my slow trek north I’ve not considered the reasons why. The reasons above are quite weighty, but are they enough for that choice? Chicago is an expensive city (I’m not concerned with the weather – I’ve dealt with worse) and now I’m not sure that we can gather enough funds and find a decent place and get a job in the right ammount of time. And then there is the green. I need green. I am utterly in love with trees and flowers and nature (which makes sense because I’m a pagan) and I don’t know if I can have those frozen out for months at a time. The trip to Colorado really solidified the longing for live nature. I’m not counting out Chicago, rather reevaltuating things. Tali and Cat are plenty reason to move north, added to that the prolific number of schools, public transportation and a wealth of museums — it sounds like heaven. But, I don’t know if I am willing to give up Nature. I realize there are trees and such in the north, but the eternal green. Can I live without it? Will a huge city overwhelm me? I feel off kilter today. Terrified of what the next year brings. I do want to move, that much is certain. But the locale still eludes me. Chicago seems to have it all. It seems to. Except the green. I need the green. I am thinking aloud, trying to figure out where D and I will fit. It just all seems a mess right now. Perhaps I just need a snack.

Category: Contemplation

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9 Responses to “Needing Green”

  1. thebluearies
    April 17th, 2006 @ 1:57 pm

    That IS a big question. Personally I love how green Florida is. For me tho that green implies that there is no white. I hate snow! I lived in it when I was a kid and I was sick all the time. My health stays better in a place where its warm, so I continue to live here and I love every minute of it.

    Yes, Chicago has lots of great attributes also, the museums etc. But would the Fuzzies be happy in the cold? Their tiny lil paws on frozen cold concrete and no wam sunny ground or dog park to be found? (i’m sorry was that a low blow?)

  2. Tea Master Cat
    April 17th, 2006 @ 5:33 pm

    I completely know how you feel. Green is good and after an entire winter without it I am so unbelievably happy now that it is back. Moving to a place you have never lived before is scary and not an easy decision to make. It is good that you are thinking it through and viewing all of your options. I am, of course, in love with this idea of us all living in the same city, but not at the sacrifice of anyone’s complete happiness. In the end we all have to make decisions based on what is right for us and not what we think is right for everyone else.

  3. Anne
    April 17th, 2006 @ 7:04 pm

    I agree with Cat – moving is life changing and in the end you have to make the right decision for you and D. Personally, it’s great to have friends that live abroad because then you get to take trips and visit and be around the snow and the fast city life, but then you get to return home to the ever-tropical weather and green and bike trails. It seems that you have good friends in both places and could easily stay or go. Just don’t force it if you are not ready. You have the rest of your life ahead of you. No need to run and move as soon as you graduate. Contemplate – take a year to save. Then see how it goes. You are the one who set this goal and you are the one can change it. No one is holding you to move and in fact, I am sure most of your FL friends would encourage you to stay *wink* for selfish reasons of course. I would ever so miss the read couch and the beagles and your enchiladas and of course getting sick every time I see you. :-)
    xoxoxo

  4. Anne
    April 17th, 2006 @ 7:09 pm

    Also, I am from the north, from DC and the Metro and free museums and free range of culture diversity. I have chosen not to move back. I love the trees and the fall and the fresh cold air in my lungs, the snow sking and Georgetown on the weekends and the music festivals and country side and hills and mountains. But I also love the green in Florida, the bike trails, the beaches, the weather, my friends and much more. I’d like to visit but I do not think I would move back. I love the hurricanes too much.
    OK, I am done giving my two cents.
    Peace and Light,
    xoxoxoxo

  5. Hard Drive
    April 17th, 2006 @ 8:00 pm

    Damn it all to hell if I couldn’t just make a “Stupid People Bomb” that would wipe the entire state of Tennessee clear of the retardation that currently resides there. It is honestly one of the most beautiful locals I have ever visited and if it wasn’t for the denizens I would be more then happy to call that place home. Oh well, I guess Mega-opolise it is then.

  6. Meow
    April 18th, 2006 @ 6:12 am

    Chris – low blow, but one I hadn’t thought about. The creatures are foremost in my mind. I know Puck would hate the snow, but I honestly think Pip would love it. He’s so damn joyful about everything, I think that perhaps he could coax Puck outside.

    Cat -I was honestly happy with the plan for Chicago till Colorado. The riot of spring, when it does come, I’m sure will soothe me and make me happy. I just think I’ve taken for granted all the green around me now. I too am in love wiht all of us in the same city. More than you goobers could know.

    Anne – you are, as always, wise and beautiful. I think all options are open. The more I lock down “we are moving in a year” the more I start to panic. I am slowly letting go of my death grip on that idea and thinking of extending our time here by a few months (walking for graduation has a lot to do with that). But we’ll see how this whole thing plays out.

    Frankie – I thought Tennessee was stunning. The land, the mountains, the… well yeah…then the people, like zombies, came out of their homes and ruined it for me. We need to start a geek-only state. Either that, or buy a country. I’ve got ten bucks and my penny jar to start! :)

  7. Hollie
    April 18th, 2006 @ 6:35 pm

    hey will you come to the commencement this year? I would really like my friends there when I dive off the deep end…

  8. Tali
    April 19th, 2006 @ 9:41 am

    Take your time and listen to the wind. If it tells you to stay….then stay. If it tells you east….then go east…north….go north…

    As much as I would love to have you 5 minutes away I won’t be happy unless you are. And as much as I love Chicago….I’m not sure I’ll be here forever…..

    We go where the wind tells us to. Listen to your soul and let it guide you.

    (Try to let it guide you to Europe ;P )

  9. Meow
    April 19th, 2006 @ 10:38 am

    How’s Ireland sound? Spain? Whaddabout Germany?
    I shall listen to the wind, but it’s going to say “bike friendly country” …which is all of Europe.

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