My shower has a window, obscured by an uneven texture in the glass, hard water stains, and long vines crisscrossing the outside, it’s more a source of light than anything else. The screws that keep it shut are rusted, and I imagine, impossible to move. Curling calk and chips in the tile, it’s an old bathroom in an old house with lots of “personality. Every morning when I take my shower I see the pale belly of the smartest lizard in the world. He (because I imagine it’s a boy) glows and I watch his head pop back and forth, searching for the dumbest bugs in the world. It’s a lizard buffet. With a kind of jerky grace, he traverses the unforgiving vines and flat leaves and I always see him chewing on something. But I’ve never seen a companion, a buddy. It seems that the smartest lizard in the world doesn’t want to share his secret. I don’t blame him. Sometimes that kind of wonderful just shouldn’t be shared.
Today is going to be a good day. Threatened by rain last night, D and I didn’t ride. We didn’t even walk the dogs. We did manage to get to the grocery store, and I lamented the restrictions of another diet. I just don’t have it in me to be uber-strict about things. I think portion control, a change in the way we eat, and using more fruit and veggies should do the trick. Oh…and regular riding. That will defiantly help. Did I mention that I have tanned knees? The rest of my legs are pretty pale, but my knees have some decent color. I just find that terribly amusing.
I’ve got a med check today and then D and I are going to see X-men. I can’t wait. We like to see movies during the day, just the two of us. I imagine, if it’s really good, that we will see it again. Then we can make it a party!
I love it when bananas are perfectly ripe. That’s what I’m eating for breakfast. Part of the diet I attempted and realized was not going to work was a yogi-based diet. As many fruits and veggies as close to their natural state as possible. Luckily I really like salads 
But I need to watch the dressing. It doesn’t even really advocate the use of milk and veggie meat substitutes. I’m sorry but I really love tofu crumbles and use them all the time. So I’m just going to eat more fruits and call it a day.
May 26th, 2006 at 6:45 am
I feel you on the diet. We were on a low-fat, high- protein diet for a year and both my husband and I lost 40 pounds. But now, even though I will never be able to eat the way I used to, I cannot stick to something as strict. I want to, I really do. But some nights, you just have to make rice krispy treats.
May 26th, 2006 at 7:08 am
I know I am a horrible influence on your dieting plans. It’s easier for me to hop on a bike everyday than restrict what I eat. I keep trying to force myself to not be a bad influence for you, but then I see the fruit of the Pomopound Tree, and well my resolve crumbles. :)I will endeavor to do better, so that it is easier for you.
May 26th, 2006 at 7:41 am
Claire - I admire your dedication. I’ve made small changes in how we eat (because I am the cook in the house) and I feel better inside, but I feel like I can’t shed this weight. So I guess I will keep doing the small things and hope that riding till I pass out works.
D - you are TERRIBLE for my plans. All this talk about pound cake, vodka cream sauce and chips makes me crazy. But I love you anyway
May 26th, 2006 at 6:01 pm
You know, Will was on a diet for almost 8 weeks. But it consisted of no fast food and lots of smoothies. He made it through and lost almost 29 pounds. Dieting doesn’t have to suck. Make it fun. I advise orange juice, mangos and non-fat vanilla yogurt in a blender with some ice.
Sushi is good too.