Moody Meow

Liberal, lunatic lassie, with mood swings and foot-in-mouth syndrome

Not my best night ever

Posted on | June 28, 2006 | 7 Comments

I thought I was okay when I went to sleep. I was reading about narcissim and the artist’s mind. D woke me gently, pulling the book from my hands and placing it on the bedside table. I fell soundly to sleep.

Go to 1:15. Something woke me up (I know Val contributed) and I was livid. D tried to talk me back into bed after I stormed off into the living room. He looked mad when he went to bed. I wasn’t nice. I cried a lot. I don’t know why. There was no reason really. I get very frustrated with the sleep thing, waking suddenly and the inability go back to sleep. Perhaps it’s the lingering issues with the darkness or something.

I sat on my computer for a while. The screen glimmered and winked at me, but I didn’t really pay any attention to what I read. Then I went to my car, grabbed the last cloves I had from Anne’s birthday and smoked. The frogs chirped, happy with the  rain. Seemore tinkled as the wind blew just enough to make him whisper. The heavy, wet leaves spilled rain onto the lower branches. And then I cut. For the first time in a long time it didn’t make me feel better. I smoked the rest of my cloves and went back inside.

Val and Voodoo sat with me. Perhaps they were trying to will away my misery. It didn’t really work. I fell asleep with the light on, reading another book for my thesis. For the rest of the night I woke up every hour. I am exhausted now. I wore a long-sleeved shirt this morning because I didn’t want any arguement with D about my arm. He went back to bed, not knowing what I did. (he’s going in late so he can wait for the AC guy).I know I will hear about it later…but I just wanted to get to work so that I can get this day over with so that I can go back to bed this afternoon and take a nap.

Category: Not so sane

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7 Responses to “Not my best night ever”

  1. Hollie
    June 28th, 2006 @ 7:19 am

    I worry about you. Have you tried learning how to meditate? what about an artistic outlet (aside from your writing) something more physical, like painting? your my friend and I hate to see you suffer…

  2. Meow
    June 28th, 2006 @ 7:44 am

    Thanks love. I honestly think it’s just the stress. Trying to get this thesis done while taking another class leaves me very little time to get anything done. This will pass. I went running yesterday, which I thought would work to calm my mind. It worked for a bit…but I am hormonal and stressed and get like this sometimes. Don’t worry :) I’ll muddle through. Just send me happy vibes till the 10th of July. After that – this madness is over!

  3. Hollie
    June 28th, 2006 @ 7:49 am

    picture Ren and Stimpy singing “Happy Happy Joy Joy”

  4. Meow
    June 28th, 2006 @ 8:37 am

    LOL….

  5. Anne
    June 28th, 2006 @ 9:18 am

    Love you…

  6. Meow
    June 28th, 2006 @ 9:19 am

    Love you too honey. And thanks for the pictures :)

  7. notyouraveragejewlie
    June 28th, 2006 @ 1:11 pm

    I hope this makes you smile.:)

    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GNndX9qua1o

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