It’s Thursday
Posted on | August 24, 2006 | 4 Comments
I’m just tired.I am in work early today so I am able to get off at 3 in order to be at school for class at 4. I left D sleeping among the beagles. I wish I could have joined him.
I may be in over my head. The Editing Essentials class promises to kick my ass. Not because Lezlie Laws is such a beast, but because I know jack and shit about grammar. I am thankful that I did not take this class with the science as I had planned. The Fates push you in different directions. This time they were right to stall me. There’s no way in hell that I could have handled Editing Essentials (she mentioned a mathematical approach to language – eww) and the foreign language that is science. At least I know what a subject and verb are. From there, I am lost.
This semester started off with fervor. Vanya and I are due for our presentation in a few weeks. I also have a presentation due for Editing Essentials (now E.E. for short) in October. I love October. I hate presentations. I have reading due for E.E. Sheesh. I thought I could eke another weekend of freedom.
I love to write. I’m passionate about the written word, but I never write outside of class. I am going to go to grad school for writing, but I am starting to doubt that plan. What if I am a better editor than a writer? I know I have skill in manipulating text, but my style annoys me and nothing I do seems to change it. I feel shaken up, and more than a little scared of making a mistake with grad school. One step follows the next. You get your BA, and then you follow with you Masters. Is that the right choice? It’s what I’ve planned to do for years. But years ago things were different and I don’t want to hold on to an idea that may not fit who I am today. It’s going to take some soul searching and honest conversation with myself to go forward with this. Meanwhile, I am going to get my B.A. The rest can fall into place once that is done.
I’ve gotten to the point in my school career where the familiar faces fade into stranger.s My classes are no longer filled with people I’ve traveled through my Rollins career with. I don’t know their voices, their habits, their laughter, their way. When we had our break last night, I sat in the courtyard surrounded by conversations. They didn’t include me. I listened. I listened to the end of my college career in Orlando, and the strangers that move with me.
Enough contemplation. Just so you know, because I know you care – my smoothies are the best breakfast ever.
That is all. It’s time to go back to work. Happy Thursday.
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August 24th, 2006 @ 6:59 am
I love October too. And I don’t know how they can possibly take a mathematical approach to editing. And I too went to grad school for my Masters in Creative Writing. To this day, I’m not sure it was the best choice. I don’t think this helps you any, but I thought I would share.
August 24th, 2006 @ 7:42 am
Actually that does help – a lot. Sometimes I feel like I am the only person in the world who feels such things. Did you get your masters because you loved the craft or because that seemed like the next logical step? Or both?
August 24th, 2006 @ 9:19 am
I took 5 years to do my undregrad b/c I was a history major before I realized I needed to write. I took a year off school to work but grad school sort of called to me. I wanted to take more workshops. Then I realized that I don’t have the kind of discipline to make myself write, even though I want to. Maybe that’s why I feel I didn’t come out of it with all that much. Maybe it’s more of a personal learning thing – writing.
August 24th, 2006 @ 9:35 am
I feel the same way my dear. So many new faces…this year is very different than years past. Since I am in my core classes in Anthro, I see many faces that I know. But I was a stranger in the science class. And BTW, it rocks. I wish you would have stuck with it. It’s amazing, enlightening, and the Professor is cool. It will not be that hard but will be refreshing. Our focus is on the environment and global warming. I am excited to go again tonight.
As far as the future…sometimes you just have to step back and let things guide you. Instead of always being 2-steps ahead, you may need to sit down on the bench and just watch and absorb and see which path you need to take.
And that’s all I gots to say about that.
Oh, and I’m the juggernaut….beeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeotch.