LTNS – the clusterfuck continues….

Posted on | February 14, 2008 | 5 Comments

I promised myself I’d write more, but I let life get away with me again. So, instead of analyzing the minutia  or ruminating over the meaning of life – I am filling you in. But at least I have things to talk about.

School is going well. I’m quite proud that I attained my page count for the month. Although there are definite flaws with what I’ve written, I see promise. That’s a huge step for me. At first, the thought of writing a synopsis for a book I’ve not yet written sounded counterproductive. How can I tell you what story I want to tell until I’ve told it? But it ended up popping me back on track. Now, it seems that I can’t go through grad school without fucking up. I didn’t’ turn something in last term that I needed to. As a result my page count was taken down by a third to satisfy the prior hiccup. I just read the e-mail from my mentor (who has been amazingly patient and supportive), and I almost wanted to cry. Then I realized that I have the time and the drive to write more. Twenty pages in 5 days? Hellz yes I can do it! That means the blogging will remain infrequent though. Sacrifices are made, I suppose. (and I always want to type “supposed” for suppose. I love the human brain. It’s so fucking odd.)

Speaking of blogging… I used to blog at work. I can’t do that with this job. Most mornings I’m lucky if I get my coffee in my stomach before the phone rings. Then there are the errands, the document tracking, arranging things. I’m always freaking busy. Not that I want it to change. I love this, for now. It’s going to pay the bills and allow me to fullfill my lifelong dream of becoming an author. I refuse to allow it to erode my creativity. But now I have an office, a new laptop and a lot of freedom. I’m very careful not to abuse any of it. Tomorrow I have my 30 day review (already!?!). I think it’s going to be fine. Did I mention that my boss is a republican? I just can’t get away from them, it seems. He’s not as much of an ass as many were in Florida, but it’s interesting. I get along with the receptionist, who is just a ball of beer-loving fun, and I joke around a lot. But it feels good to have responsibility and the freedom to get my job done my way.

I’ve spent some wonderful time with C lately. Last Friday we went to our favorite restraunt, had wine, and shopped. I splurged and bought a jacket. Oh, and I bought D a hat made of alpaca fur. Why?…. because…..

*insert dramatic music with big drums…..uhm…. cause I like drums*

D had an interview (sorry…. hold on. No music just yet). It was a promising interview, but once again, didn’t pan out. He ended up leaving his hat at their office. I felt bad. While it’s warming up now (as in – I’ve only had to scrape a little bit of ice off the windshield twice this week), he’s still bald, and his head still gets cold. So I found this happy, orange, furry hat and bought it for him.

It was also to offset the fact that I spent 6o bucks on a coat for myself. But the girl gave it to me half off! It was originaly 12o. Okay, so I’m pushing the rationalization thing a bit far right now. Blow me.

*reinsert music*

So, D has been looking for a long term job. He’s been working as a contractor, week to week, for Nike. That’s all well and good, but there was not promise of permanency and he hasn’t worked a full 40 hours yet. AND they were paying him WAY freaking less. So…………….. he finally got an offer from a major company – one whose name you would know. I’m not saying it here because I do like to pretend that I have some anonymity. He starts with them for a 12-18 month contract making a lot more than he did in Orlando. The kicker is that it’s in Wilsonville, which, for you Florida folk is 22 miles south. D and I are sharing the car because I do a lot of driving for work. We’d planned on him biking and bussing it, but I think that may just be too long of a commute. So >I< will be biking to work 4 days a week (I have a regular meeting at one of our job sites at 7 on Thursdays, so I need to take the car that day) while he drives.

The best part of all of this is that we both have jobs now and I can honestly say that things are working out. It’s been rough. I’ll admit to doing some damage to myself, more than most of you know (D knows about it all…don’t worry. I’ve been thoroughly lectured), but I’m taking steps to make it better. Life is looking good now.  Things are finally on track.

Oh – so back to C and me. We love to go to this particular neighborhood and talk. I don’t know why, it just feels good there. We have been friends for a number of years now. It’s funny how things work out. While she’s had her struggles just as well as I have, we both respect each other’s journeys. It helps that we are both on the same page with a lot of things. That time we spend, surrounded by the grey skies and colorful people…it’s precious and slow and I savor it. That’s really all I can say about it.

Oh… btw. Portland has mead. I think I’m in heaven.

Because I’m very tired, I’m going to give you bullett points for the rest of this entry. I’ll try to write tomorrow, but it’s St. Hallmark’s day… and I have 2 meetings and a dinner planned. Then my sister and her friend are coming in for the weekend – sans children. I, E the MoodyMeow, am going bootydancing. If I make an ass out of myself, I’m going to blame it on my sister. Knowing me, I’ll probably just get drunk and make an ass out of myself…cause it’s fun. Now, to the bullets.

• Obama is going to be president. I wanted Edwards to move forward, but then I realized that running on a platform that helps the poor is the surest way not to get elected. I still won’t call myself a democrat, but there’s not much that McCain is showing me that I would like to vote for. And Obama is a brilliant speaker. Untested? Aren’t all presidents untested in the beginning?
• I hate Fox News.
• Smelly, happy candles are the key to a good day.
• My dogs need a bath.
• Gray winters don’t bother me. Neither does rain and the cold. I’ll tell you how I feel about it when I start riding in it next week.
• My job has a shower. It’s been a storage closet for close to a year, so I get to clean it up, but it still has a shower.
• Marie Antoinette is very misunderstood. I’m reading one of her biographies, and it seems sad that she was so vilified in her time.
• I’m addicted to political news now. It’s on all the time – at work, at home, in the car. I finally understand what superdelegates are!
• Powells will continue to be my favorite place in Portland. God, I love their sales.
• I now have the perfect bag. If you’ve known me at all, I have a slight addiction to bags. I foudn the one that will satisfy me for at least the next year. And I found it at Powells —it’s really the bookstore that has everything.
• Did I mention the mead?
• My hair is getting really long. It needs to be cut.
• There’s something living under my house. The dogs and cats keep pawing at the floor near the counter and sniffing behind the fridge. It’s driving me crazy.
• My parents have finally filed for divorce. It’s a good thing, for both of them, but that’s the last public comment I will make about it. The lurkers do include my family, and I won’t say anything that could possibly hurt my mother.
• My Mom rules.
• I’m too tired to edit for clarity or spell check.
• I got lost again today (running errands for work) and I saw SHEEP! Big ones! Oh, and there are lamas near one of the jobs sites. Sometimes the country, as in not-urban, really is fantastic.
• We loaded skype at work. I’m not allowed to load firefox, but skype is legal. Go fucking figure.
• The dogs ripped my favorite blanket, so I patched it. I love my duvet, but it looks a little country-kitsch now. Oh well.

And finally. I want to wish D a HappyCauseILoveYou day. Fuck the saint. Fuck hallmark. Just remember that I may play too many video games, snore, fuck up when I’m trying not to smoke, leave my socks in the living room, and annoy you to pieces, but there’s no other place I’d rather be than by your side. I realize that I don’t tell you that enough anymore. Today, that changes (and I got you a present HUZZAH!).

Remember to tell someone you love them, but most especially….tell yourself.

*begin snore*

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