Coming Clean

Posted on | June 16, 2009 |

I erased the entry I wrote yesterday because yesterday was not one of my better days. I recognize the swing from mania to depression. Love how it only takes a few hours to get out of the hole. I guess there is something to be said about rapid cycling. That being said, I did some things yesterday I’m not proud of and dug myself into a grave of failure.

Today I woke and have started to dig myself out. I had much of my teaching module done for school and in a fit of despair, deleted the entire thing. I’m back to building it from scratch again, trying to piece together the info I still have sitting on the desktop. Crazy people take a lot longer to do things, I guess. At least I know where all the information is.

I think I have settled with the sections I want to read for my thesis defense. Then again, I will probably change my mind. But I am trying to ignore the fact that D won’t be there. That honestly makes me get all teary eyed every time I think about it. I am starting to get excited about school, but I am feeling overwhelmed. What if I bomb my teaching module? That is the one that has me worried.

And I haven’t even thought about pitching my novel yet. I can’t wrap my head around that. One thing at a time…. just one thing.

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