Moody Meow

Liberal, lunatic lassie, with mood swings and foot-in-mouth syndrome

From My Sister

Posted on | February 21, 2005 | 10 Comments

My sister’s name is Alexis. She just gave birth to my niece, Miya, a month or so ago. And she wrote this for me. (sorry Lex, I didn’t correct anything – sometimes things are better in their raw form rather than all polished and shiny!)

Tribute to a wonderful woman…

It is funny how life works. Tonight I was sitting here holding my daughter and I realized that her face was very familiar to me. Not in the way of seeing her everyday since her birth but I saw an older face one that has been in my life for almost twenty five years. The face I saw was my sister. I stared down at her pouty lower lip and her sunken chin line and had to smile. My mind drifted back to the girl I grew up with and the only thought that kept coming into my head was that I hope my daughter is lucky to not be plagued with the same demons that possessed my sister for so long. It is almost like I am being given the opportunity to do right by my sister through my own child. I am scared of that though….. what if I fail her or I am not good enough. What if she suffers from the same types of darkness that all of the women in my family have gone through? Will I be able to see the signs and guide her back to the light? Will she become a woman who is as close of a friend to me as my own mother and sister? I could only hope that my daughter is as wonderful and gifted as her aunt because she is someone that I deeply admire and adore. I know that I am not a writer like my sister but I remember a comment she made to me once about my daughters name, she said “why didn’t you name her after me” and in a way I felt guilty because the name that my sister carries is tied to a unique, strong, independent woman and those are all qualities I would like Miya to have but now I realize that Erica has marked my daughter in an even better way… my daughter is blessed with my sisters beauty and for that I have to say thank you. Somehow she Erica managed to pass to my little girl her beautiful face and I hope she knows that is better than any name.

Comments

10 Responses to “From My Sister”

  1. E the M
    February 23rd, 2005 @ 2:30 pm

    I think it has something to do with menstruation

  2. David M
    February 23rd, 2005 @ 12:57 pm

    Not to destroy the nice sentiments going on here, and Lex it was really beautiful little writing, but love what exactly is a “Bong of Blood.”? :)

  3. little sis
    February 23rd, 2005 @ 12:29 am

    Thank you to everyone and there kind words about what I wrote for Erica and as you are all close to her I know that you are all aware of how much of a gift she really is in out lives. I can’t wait to meet those of you that I have not met before and to see those of you again who I met when I was out there last. Kiss my sister for me and Erica remember I will be there in 10 days YYYYAAAAAA

  4. Erica the Meow
    February 22nd, 2005 @ 4:43 pm

    While Lex and I share a bong of blood…don’t doubt that your are my sister in my heart, Cat…. =)

    **end mushy moment**

  5. Cat
    February 22nd, 2005 @ 2:53 pm

    wow! Alexis, you have completely changed my position on having a sister (i always reveled in the fact i didn’t have one) but after reading this i wish that i did.

  6. E the M
    February 22nd, 2005 @ 12:56 pm

    Good job Lex!! You are making my friends CRY!

  7. Heather
    February 22nd, 2005 @ 8:20 am

    Could you put some kind of warning right up front that this might make you cry. I just did my makeup!

  8. Julie
    February 21st, 2005 @ 1:27 pm

    Alexis,I can’t wait to give you a hug.

  9. E the M
    February 21st, 2005 @ 1:21 pm

    =)
    I love my sister.

  10. The Blue Aries
    February 21st, 2005 @ 12:41 pm

    Oh, im gonna cry its so beautiful… Alexis that is an awesome thing to say about your sister ;-)

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