I’m listening to Natacha Atlas, and wondering
Posted on | June 22, 2005 | 4 Comments
Last night I rediscovered my love for the game Jak 3. It’s no Ratchet and Clank, but it’s entertaining. I tried to master the bastard between making dinner and talking to Tali on the phone (we are go for launch, I will e-mail you the details!!) Lex and I spoke about the weather up in Tacoma and how pretty is is. I WANNA GO!! ::pout:: I keep reading the papers for Chicago and Seattle and find so many interesting thing to do: festivals, shows, art exibits. I wonder why we don’t get anything cool!!
This morning was my second morning working out (meaning I am at work by 6 so I can work out and shower before 7). The nice thing about this is that I am fully awake when I start work. The bad thing is that I am deep in dreamland by 9:30. It doesn’t make for a terribly exciting home life, but I try.
Miss V not only came over last night to steal my meat thermometer (it’s been used only once – for the turkey loaf we ate last year instead of a real turkey) and to tell us about this!! this! We are going to take a road trip down to Ft. Lauderdale so we can see this. And in the process I will visit old friends and show V and Mr. Tim a good time at my favorite hauntsin that charming little town. I am quite surprised that it is coming to Florida at all. Because we are a long, thin state (see: phallic) many shows/exibits do not come here. But it’s nice to see that some things trickle down. Perhaps it’s cultural gravity.
I’ve been watching the pages of my telephone book crumble away with rot. It’s not that I don’t call…well it is that. But also I have come to feel like there is some barrier to what was before. There were movie nights and dinner nights and many nights that I hosted gatherings on the driveway (supplemented by much wine and debate over comics and movies). What changed in all this? People grow apart, and up, and down and sideways. I guess I am comfortable with that (okay, I’m not, and I am a terrible liar). It seems that the people I am closest to (beyond D) are out of state. Everyone else, save one or two here and there have new things going on that I am either A) not interested in or B) not allowed to be around. It just makes me sad sometimes. This is a world of my own making. I recognize that. I just wonder what could have been different, if anything.
Speaking on the closeness out of proximity, it makes me more eager to get this ball rolling so that the moment we can vacate this place. I feel a need to build a new community based on a non-history. The nice thing about starting over is that there is no assumption about your past. I could begin to build relations based on the important things in my life: my relationship with Snoogs, my love for all fuzzies, my writing and creative life, and traveling throughout the world trying to make thing better. I think I need to start over. I will have been in this town for over 8 years by the time we leave. That is twice what I usually spent anywhere. I am eager to plant roots, to find solid footing, but it will be some where that nurtures artistic drives and the natural world. There is a balance, albeit tentative, between my need for the convienance of the city and the longing for a complete immersion in nature. It’s been there all along. I am starting to think that my natural side will win someday… but for now I am thankful for the 7-11 down the street where I bought my bottle of water this morning.
I know that was whining. Sorry. I’m PMSing, which explains my random craving for Doritos. I am trying to avoid the snack machine and convince myself that a banana is much tastier…. trying …trying ….trying
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June 22nd, 2005 @ 1:04 pm
Meat thermometer…
June 22nd, 2005 @ 1:05 pm
June 22nd, 2005 @ 5:18 pm
PMS sucks.
Try the Mocha frappicino(sp?) pops – they are most soothing and quite yummy.
June 23rd, 2005 @ 6:10 am
LOL you rock. I sated myself with some chocolate milk and beer.