‘nother hard day in crazy land
Posted on | July 20, 2005 | 8 Comments
You’ve heard it before. I know I’ve said it before: I really hate being bi-polar sometimes. This week is a prime example. Why? Because my hormones dictate my mood, which in the end means that my moods are all over the fucking place. I’m tired all the time. I wake up wicket pissed at the world. I slink through the morning hours, sucking down my coffee and water, and try not to take this redness out on anyone. D still seems to get burnt by it. And it makes me even angrier knowing that I do that (sometimes I think that ignorance really is bliss…and sometimes I wish I was still as selfish as I used to be – then I wouldn’t hurt him, and in turn, hurt myself). Tantrum boils just beneath the surface. I think i ought to try boxing. Anyone want to box?
I’m going to the tag office to get my new tag. I still want to get the one that says Moody, but we will see what the total comes out to. I am going to get the one that says “Animal Friend” so I can support my fuzzies.
I am going to work through this blue, so here’s a list of things I know make me happy:
smoking – yes, I know it’s bad for me, but fuck, I’m an addict.
running – goes against smoking, but there’s no other feeling like exhausted muscles
D – why? Because he’s D…
beagles and kitties – happy faces, all the time.
driving really fast – and the fact that I’ve not gotten a ticket recently! (knocks on wood)
Psychonauts – aka crack
My plants – have you seen my basil? It’s going to eat the porch soon
Windchimes
Air plants
Seemore the Sycamore
Presents!
Listening to music really loud in Vader – D’s soundsystem is far superior to my own
New music
Old music
Funny socks
Pip running around the house with funny socks
Wireless controlers for game consoles – the designers must have either had animals or have been very lazy
Friends – you should have been higher on the list…
my purple stapler
rainstorms
roofs that don’t leak
the new setup for the house
naps (although my naps have been quite lengthly recently)
On those happy notes, I am going to get some work done. Music helps. And Snoogs, the dock works wonders… I’m glad you reminded me that I had it!
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July 20th, 2005 @ 9:04 am
We could get a punching bag…:)
July 20th, 2005 @ 9:30 am
Ooooohh… now that would be fun. Although, why do I see myself getting hurt??
Where would we hang it? From a tree?
July 20th, 2005 @ 10:10 am
We could hang it from a tree, but they also have bags that don’t hang.
July 20th, 2005 @ 10:52 am
Mmmm…that’s a thought. I could get in a fight with a bag…and I would always win! How lovely…
July 20th, 2005 @ 11:03 am
Well I need a sparing partner for my boxing match. So you could just hit me a lot so I know what it feels like to get wholloped. That was a might nice list of things you like. I think you missed a very important one though. SALSA! You know you love the salsa. And by the way, we love ya cause you are moody, and dont you forget it.
July 20th, 2005 @ 11:29 am
Thank your Frankie-kins!!
I didn’t want to add : salsa, sour cream and tortillas…well because those are so deeply ingraned in my food obsessions that I thought it was too obvious to state. I went with more interesting ones.
I must add: mint choclate chip ice cream, almonds, having long nails, thick silver bracelets, my scarred wedding ring, and the stares I get when I “adjust” my septum ring…hehehehe
July 20th, 2005 @ 12:01 pm
I’ve met a lot of runners over the past year and I’m surprised at how many smoke. I just found out that the top female finisher in the 2004 OUC Half Marathon is a smoker. They do tend to be the younger runners, the college crowd. So you are not alone.
And once you establish yourself as a regular runner, imagine how much you’ll be able to improve once you quit smoking.
July 24th, 2005 @ 9:32 pm
I like your list. I’m writing a slightly more extensive list of this sort (happy thing), woven through with short memoirs for my thesis. And I love funny socks too.