The phonecall, initiated yesterday, left me sleepless last night. But I napped this morning, with both beagles, and for the first time since I quit CRG, I slept well.

She called last night as I was running about with both beagles in the car. I took them up to David’s work so his co-workers could witness the intense cuteness that are the hounds. So, when we got home and a message blinked, I started to freak out. Why was she calling? (she never stated why). Did I get it? Did they need something else before making a decision? I called her back before 5:30, as she requested, but no one answered. So I stewed and steamed and cooked myself into quite a fuss. I was going to wake early this morning to call again, but I didn’t have to.

She called again this morning at 8. I was trying to get back to sleep after both boys charged me, smothering me with kisses. It’s very hard to defend yourself when you are still mostly in dreamland, but the ring of the phone brought me out of it.

The look on David’s face as he entered the room was hopeful “It’s for you. OUC.”

My eyes got big. “Good morning” I said, and crossed my toes beneath the blanket.
“I’m sorry for calling you so early, Ms. Garcia, I thought you called this morning but realized that you called last night. I would like to offer you the Administrative Assistant job on a contingent basis, the final offer will be made after you take the drug test…..”
She went on but all I heard was YES!!!
I need to work out some paperwork and take some other tests, but otherwise its mine. One of the reasons I am glad I don’t do drugs anymore, I have nothing to worry about with the test. I start on May 10th. The money is very good, and I get a raise in 6 months. Have I mentioned that I start on May 10th?

So, it was all worth it. The worrying. The fear. The intense self scrutiny I put myself through. And that woman that passed in front of me, I think she did give me a little extra grace and courage. Something like that cannot leave you. When I heard yes, I thanked that shattered woman, for I know she had a hand in this cosmic turn.

I know this is not going to be a perfect job, but I think I have found the right direction for me. It’s called up!