Moody Meow

Liberal, lunatic lassie, with mood swings and foot-in-mouth syndrome

Second Session

Posted on | October 20, 2005 | 5 Comments

It’s amazing the clarity that comes with therapy. I fell asleep when I got home. It felt like two children of amazing weight were pulling at my eyelids. Pip and I laid down for “just a minute” and D found me about a half hour later, sleeping deeply. I admit my bitterness at being woken. But I trudged off to the appointment after grabbing a granola bar and a soda.

Dr. M really possesses a piercing perception. I won’t get into the gross details of things, but I tried to explain the tension between Papa-san and I and how I truly believed it stemmed from the deadbastardbrother’s funeral (this is a wake up call to all of you – don’t ask if you don’t want the truth) and all the events that followed. I don’t think he and I will ever be friends. That bugs the hell out of me. Then we contemplated my immersion in the lives of my family, being influenced emotionally by the wants/needs/longings/pain of others. She had an affirmation that fit perfectly. It said something to the effect of “You may revel in empathy from afar, but allow those with troubles to fall and stumble upon their own path, for it is their path of learning.” So, I am going to try to do that. I am a know-it-all and I feel like because I’ve walked deeper and darker roads that I know how to help (push) others through their problems. It’s not my job. In contrast, this affirmation is good in theory, but I have a tendency to give until it hurts (or until I get resentful, which I am working through now). Time to pull back a bit and work on me. I must also work on not giving unsolicited advice….that’s going to be quite hard for me. I suppose this is all a part of the growing process.

Today I have 2 classes. Today we are also going to be discussing the possibility of a hurricane strike in our area. A lot of people are not worried about it here, but remember that Charley took an unexpected turn, and all of our state is at risk. I almost wish it would hit here rather than in sofl so that my Grandparents could be spared. They don’t need this stress and this uncertainty weighing on them. Not that I want it myself, but I would rather it be me.

The squirrels that I mentioned yesterday are playing again this morning. I think it’s a game of “chasey-chasey” and perhaps I will see some baby squirrels sometime soon. The couple that frequent Seemore’s boughs seem quite pleased that I put the old birdfeeder back up. They broke the one I bought for it’s “squirrel-proof” features. I didn’t think they would just knock the whole thing out of the tree, shattering it so that they could get to the seed. I need to name them. I like Fleck, for the female, who flips her tail all the time. The male is Maurice (he’s French, but doesn’t’ know it)….yes. That works for me.

I realize that my mundane entries probably bore most people. I read other people’s blogs, with their chaotic and exciting lives in the nightlife, where they always seem possessed by some tragic inclination. I read their posts. Then I read my own. Personally, I like my squirrels and new porch chairs. No, it’s not that exciting, except for those of you that like porch time.

I shall now go back to drinking my coffee and contemplating my navel (which is what I tell D I am doing when I’m tired).

One link for you! It’s a video from NASA showing all the hurricanes this year. It’s Quicktime and quite large (either that or my connection is slow as shit at work). It timed out when I was trying to download it, but I got to see a few form. There are also shots of Katrina and Rita for your viewing pleasure. Nature’s just bloody amazing sometimes.

Category: Contemplation, Links, Not so sane

Comments

5 Responses to “Second Session”

  1. Hollie
    October 20th, 2005 @ 8:44 am

    Good Morning E-
    glad to hear your session went well…
    I am a porchie so I can relate…I love nice chairs and birdfeeders/squirrel feeders which ever the case may be.
    I will see you this evening…But I am going to leave early.. I have to finish the senior paper and turn it in tomorrow to Dr Dunn…
    yeah for Mentos

  2. Meow
    October 20th, 2005 @ 9:01 am

    LOL okay…see you tonight.
    The Squirrels are still going at it outside my window. I think they are going to have sex soon. I feel dirty !! :)

  3. Frankie
    October 20th, 2005 @ 9:13 am

    I like the squirrels. I think you should make weekly exploits bout them. Of course they should be made up, but I would like to see what is going on in there lives on a periodic basis. I believe the party is still on for Saturday. I’m thinking it will be starting at around 8, but you’re welcome to get there earlier if you would like. I am looking forward to seeing you there. BIG GIANT HUGS, and your life is more interesting then mine so :-P

  4. Meow
    October 20th, 2005 @ 9:25 am

    We will be there with bells on ! :) And with costumes! So consider this our RSVP .
    And I shall have more stories about squirrels!

  5. julie
    October 20th, 2005 @ 11:48 am

    Have I ever played you the song my brother wrote, “Watching Squirrels Mating in the Middle of the Road”? I think you will appreciate it very much…

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