the passing of a new year
Posted on | October 31, 2005 | 10 Comments
I’ve watched the population of my life swell and dwindle in these past twelve months. But the most important thing has been my marriage. We didn’t celebrate it as others would. Actually we went to lunch at Seito in Winter Park, where the snotty waitress forgot my food. Add to that the dryer pissing out on us, and it really wasn’t a terribly lovely day. I’ve been under the weather since the party, my stomach continuing to remind me that drinking in excess is a mistake. But my soul feels full. That’s the most important thing to me. Regardless of the aquisition and loss in friendships and clutter, my life is full because I have David. I marvel almost daily at his artistic spirit, his love for the underdog (literally and figuratively) and his incessant need to grow. I’ve found the one person in the world who understands that sandwiches are sammiches and how much fun it is to say the word “bungalow” over and over again. Sometimes when my life gets too busy I took his presence for granted. Recently I’ve really rexamined this, and each time I see him now I drink in his visage. I know how his eyes disappear when he shows me a silly smile. It’s those moments that I desperatly cling to because I know how fleeting life is. My joy’s beginings come from my family, and last year we announced to the world what we meant to each other. That didn’t change. It can’t change, because I know in the deepest parts of me that I am to him what he is to me. There’s no greater comfort than true love.
I hope in this next year you all find what you are looking for. If it’s success, may it come to you with colors blazing and horns trumpeting. If it’s love, may you earn Love’s complex embrace and rejoice in both Her pain and pleasure. If it’s money, may you aquire enough to remember to give to others. If it’s peace, may it come from deep within. What ever you want, may it be also what you need.
I’ve been gifted the finest of friends and relations. And those that exited throughout these months, I wish them all the same joys that I’ve been blessed with because although they may have not been successful in my circle, they will find others in which to succeed. I just hope they all learned from the experience.
This year taught me about forgiveness, acceptance, responsibility and ownership. I anticipate great change in the next year. Graduation looms greatly, as does a move of some sort. So many things are poised to shift and grow. Regardless of what happens, though, David and I will remaind the goofy couple who live for dogs and childish joys. Each time I look at my ring I remember something I used to tell my mother when I was child, “I love you in a circle because a circle never ends.” So, David, remember when I get crazed and unreasonable that I love you in a circle…..
Blessed be!
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