Moody Meow

The Bad (get it out of the way so there’s plenty of room for the good:

My Grannie will be gone soon.
My mother is dealing with the death of her mother, a divorce, and uncertain work future and carrying the weight of dealing with an entire family’s load of issues.
My Budokan class has been canceled - [...]

I spoke with Mom yesterday as she left the plane. She sounded tired, worn, blue, and uneasy. But I made her laugh (it’s what us kids do), and she promised to call with any news. It’s nearly noon on the East coast, and no word. But my phone is still on.
And things keep rolling. Although [...]

How hard it must be to make that decision - life support, or death.
Mom is flying east tomorrow to help the family make the decision. Lex and I will fly out soon. Our family needs us. And while I know when she passes it wil be a blessing for her, and while I know that [...]

Let this be a warning…I’m on my “I can’t fucking stand self-important Christians who tread on hypocritical moral high ground” soapbox… Why? Because it’s pre-coffee time, I forgot my breakfast and I pissed at the world that I had to get out of bed this morning.
Only someone who is painfully idiotic or completly unaware would [...]

Thwap - that’s what this would sound like. When I was half asleep, trying to wake up and uncurl myself from around a particularly cute pile of beagles, I listened to the morning talking heads chewing on this story with a kind of sick relish.  What do I think about this?
Fucking duh!
But I am now [...]

That was the first thing I thought this morning when I woke up. How vile? How nasty? How could I smell or taste anything beyond that stench? How in the fuck am I going to get through residency without smoking? But my friend from work is quitting and I am trying to be supportive. And [...]

was not impressed with Ironman, but D liked it. B was entertained as well. Oh well, at least I got to see the trailers for Indy and Batman.
The weather is amazing right now. Sunny, clear and just cool enough to keep you from overheating.
Making progress on the school stuff.
Saw Amandapants @ Cup and Saucer and [...]

I was going to write about my new job, the phone my boss gave me (err, I mean my team mate/leaderperson or something — he’s very into teams) and the desk I finally got to set up. But my old boss from the old job back in Whorelando e-mailed me this morning. One of my [...]

Some observations before I fall asleep. Because I’ve gone all insominiac on the east coast, and it sucks.

Conversation is one of the finest gifts that a person can share. I just had an amazing conversation with one of my residency girls, and I think I made a good friend for a long time. When I [...]

I’m quite down, so let me start off apoligizing for the tone of this post. It’s kind of shitty that i’ve not blogged daily, and when I do, it’s one full of unecessary sadness, but that’s the way of my life right now. Let’s just blame it on the holidaze.  Since the birth of my [...]

I made a mistake with miss C and jumped on her shit for no reason. Sorry love!
I’m still working on cleaning the house. The fam is due in @ 7:30. I’m very excited. And very nervous for some reason. But I went running yesterday. It was 41 degrees! I rock, thank you thank you.
Oh, and [...]

I read this today, and it worried me. I remember (I and miss) the suddenness of Florida storms, how they erupt in a moment and either bathe the world in water or tear the houses down. The rains here are nothing short of gentle and kind. Misty and almost mysterious, they don’t assault the senses [...]

Tonight, I went to Powell’s in Beaverton to listen to him speak about his new book Little Grrl Lost. He read from the first chapter, and although it’s a YAF book, I am thinking that I would like to read it. I renewed my love for his writing. My two favorite books of his are [...]

It’s been a few crazy days, but there’s much to talk about today.
First and foremost — congrats to Claire! She had her baby and is home resting well.
I’ve come to a realization here in Portland that the servers function in their own time-space continuum. While the service was spotty throughout Orlando, I find the comparision [...]

Just so you know, my brother is fine. I didn’t state that as the reason for our visit before, because honestly, I didn’t know what we would find when we got here. He’s a lot like me sometimes. We disappear for a while, out of communication with the world, just… well …. because. He’s in [...]

I planned on getting a chunk of my writing done today, but last night I had a manic snap…and it lasted until I went to bed sometime after 6 this morning. I figured after dawn hit that I should try to sleep. It didn’t work out well, but because I’m all kinds of sparky right [...]

I hate writing long blog posts. For the sake of my readers, I feel like I should break things up catagoreically and not let the personal stuff blend with the policital stuff, and not to let the stuff about the move blend with my fun in the now. I should get over this. I like [...]

I feel like the ick again. I have a sexy, deep voice. I buried myself in my blankets yesterday, moving only to use the bathroom and grab more excedrin. D made dinner. I love him.
D and I went to Heather’s birthday celebration on Friday. Pirates — she made us wear pirate hats. And I am [...]

I don’t like to buy things for myself. People often say that I am spoiled, and I don’t deny that statement, but a lot of it has to do with the fact that I won’t buy much for myself. So, D, sick of listening to me moan and groan and lust over these spirals for [...]

He left her a note on the bed.
I have to go.
Have a good life.
Don’t look for me.
He told me stories about his past. He used to slam down shots of whiskey before working in the mines in Kentucky. Just a paycheck away from being homeless, he always had cash for the drink. He traveled the [...]