Watch the hanging
My emotions glow like a neon sign. I’m still trying to find a good use for this lack of control, but often, it gets me in trouble. Apparently living on the edge of a breakdown scares people. You see: emotionally unstable. I see the fires of possibility burning brightly. Now that I’ve completely lost the [...]
Happy pants
I’ve searched high and low for something comfy for my yoga (see: can’t touch my fucking toes) practice, but something loose enough for belly dancing. And I found these!! I bought the canvas colored pants at the bottom. I liked the green and blue pair up in the right corner, but they didn’t have my [...]
She turned 13
I see myself in her eyes. And thirteen year ago, I first took in the contours of her face, and wondered if her eyes would eventually take the shape of my own. That day, January 8th, 1994, she was born. That day I became a birthmother. I called her last night, just wanting to say [...]
Honest patchwork
Half written posts clog up a section of WordPress - the “manage” section. This probably doesn’t mean a damn thing to you, but I save some sites there, or story ideas and whatnot. The problem is, there are a lot of half-finished posts just sitting in digital purgatory. Some are rants. Others, just incomplete thoughts. [...]
One iPod isn’t enough
Oh my. This article could be about me. I think I have 3 iPods, and I proposed to D with one. It’s become a part of our everyday culture. Each morning I start my day with a cup of coffee and the soothing sounds of my iPod video. For a while, I even had movies [...]
Head in the shell
Christmas passed. I kept my phone on silent on purpose. No offense to anyone, but I didn’t feel like talking. This happens every year. I quietly mourn the loss of my idealistic Christmas memorys as they fade further, losing their sharp edges, becoming nothing more than a blurry light in the shadow of my mind. [...]
The sound of falling rain
For almost 10 minutes, while I contemplated the sensation of my last cloves in my chest, I listened to the tap-tap of rain on my sycamore. His leaves changed suddenly this year. For two weeks he has rained brown, crunchy leaves. Some cling to nearly naked branches. My camera longs to document this fall, but [...]
Out with the stitches, in with the cortisone and the final was my bitch!
The first event of the day brought me to Orange Avenue, near Winter Park. My dermatologist scheduled me for 9 that morning, and I was running late. I have a problem routing myself in the most efficient direction, instead, I weave to and fro through familiar streets, comfortable and slow. Actually, I’m not a slow [...]
Tofurkey Day through Monday
The weekend was too short. I am sure that many people feel that way, but my Sunday felt too colored by blue. D and I tried to combat that by going to the Aloma Cinema and Grill (not a bad place to see a movie!) for a little Casino Royale action. Frankie mentioned the uneven [...]
The Letter and other stories
On Friday a letter arrived. My birthdaughter’s script decorated the pink envelope. Strange. I hadn’t heard from her in months. The letter’s contents disturbed me. She’ turning 13 in January and struggling through adolescent stresses. Friends and boyfriends. Parents who seem to be working against her. It’s not uncommon for her to rail against her [...]
My favorite hat
I am wearing my favorite hat today. I bought it in Breckinridge a few years ago, but it rarely gets cold enough for me to wear it. Today, it’s chilly. I am wearing my Pearl Izumi jacket, a cute green long-sleeve shirt and my favorite jeans. I put my hair in pigtails. I feel very [...]
Michelangelo’s Tits
I had to haul ass to Whole Foods last night (yes, I am one of those granola eating hippies) after class. I picked up apples. frozen strawberries and a dessert for D and I. It was a quick trip. I had to get home. I’m female this week, hence, the rush. Now, before I go [...]
Recap
I am not hiding anything on this blog. I fill the pixels with TMI, emotive responses and concerns. I remind my dear readers of my mantra “If you come, you read, but I don’t justify.” Oops – I wrote a whole part about something very embarrassing that happened to me, but I deleted it. Some [...]
Handwritten
Pen to paper, so they say. What is this scrawl lost amung the New Times Roman and Ariel. Who thought that univeraal fonts were a good idea. Give me the flow of aching elbow and splotchy pen. I taken better, more thorough notes on my laptop but they lose their organic nature in this medium. [...]
Coming closer to sanity
I went back to the headshrinker on Monday. I must say, her assistant is adorable. She has a whispery voice and an easy smile, and I saw the peek of a tattoo as her sleeve rode up on her shoulder. She told me later, as I left, that she has a full back piece of [...]
It’s like a disease…
So, I read on Claire’s blog that she’s been watching the Lord of the Rings movies. I have them ripped to my video iPod. I listen to movies. My journey is taken in the sound. Although visuals move me, it’s the voice and music and Foley art that allow my mind to believe. So, instead [...]
Contemplation, kindness and a little selfish rambling
My bed felt particularly intoxicating this morning. Don’t you have those moments where the morning rushes foreword, but you want to stay beneath body-warmed blankets and lingering dreams? I felt that this morning. I’m not really tired, but the bed calls me. It’s a loud call. We watched the first half of “When the Levees [...]
Pretty pretty shoes
I’m not a vegan. I try to make responsible choices about my food and clothing, but there are some situations where it is impossible. Running and biking do not come easy to the vegan. My seat is made of leather. I think my bike shoes have leather as well. I know my running shoes do. [...]
It’s Thursday
I’m just tired.I am in work early today so I am able to get off at 3 in order to be at school for class at 4. I left D sleeping among the beagles. I wish I could have joined him. I may be in over my head. The Editing Essentials class promises to kick [...]
Back out of balance
I’m taking it in stride, the emotional, scholarly and physical challenges that have been cropping up. I don’t trust anything right now. School is fucking with my head (I ran out of money from the Stafford loan and have to borrow additional monies outside of school) and the continue limbo with my grade really makes [...]
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