With song
I am in a horrifically scary place right now. It’s a result of things I can change, like eating and getting off my ass, but I push forward in spite of my own health. So, here I am, at work and all I can think about are the birds that greeted me when I walked [...]
Just not into it
Busy and in a shittastic mood. I’ve no reason to be upset. I had a great weekend, but I can’t carry that joy into this morning. I will write later about my accomplishments and observations. But, for now, I am going to try to get through today without running out of the building, screaming.
Wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!
Moodswiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiingggggggggggg!! Isn’t this fun?
Not in the mood
to write to think to feel this blue for questions and answers for bitter tastes to understand for unfinished homework to be the fat girl for a peircing to act up to think about moving to say thank you for conversation to really give up smoking to deal with the shitty phone setup at work [...]
Coming closer to sanity
I went back to the headshrinker on Monday. I must say, her assistant is adorable. She has a whispery voice and an easy smile, and I saw the peek of a tattoo as her sleeve rode up on her shoulder. She told me later, as I left, that she has a full back piece of [...]
Grrrrrump…. grrrrump.
I hate small talk. Just so you all know. Hate it. I am interested in true dialogue. Don’t ask me how I am if you don’t give a shit. And whispers are just rude. I am coming out of a fog this morning, and am more than a little grumpy. Nothing really happened. Last night’s [...]
A Roadtrip of Lessons
Roadtrips are not all they are cracked up to be Not eating is a very bad thing. Sometimes taking a break is the hardest decision to make. People do stupid thing when they are tired. You have to remember to bring the battery for the camera if you intend on taking pictures. Dr. Pepper is [...]
It’s monday…moody monday
Frickin WordPress ate my first post, so it’s lazy time for the Erica. I’m too damn hungry to string along cohesive paragraphs, so you get a list. My enchiladas are still the best out there. Sometimes its best to just shut up and forgive, but I’m not taking my own advice right now. I love [...]
Not my best night ever
I thought I was okay when I went to sleep. I was reading about narcissim and the artist’s mind. D woke me gently, pulling the book from my hands and placing it on the bedside table. I fell soundly to sleep. Go to 1:15. Something woke me up (I know Val contributed) and I was [...]
Better…ish
I was waaaay medicated yesterday, and today I remain medicated, but I less so. The diagnosis for this whole mess was as a “side effect” of one of my meds. My understanding for “jittery” was far different from the Doc’s. The jitteryness started. I freaked out. Then a panic attack. Then a visit to the [...]
Slipping, shifting, scratching my hand
I can’t be eloquent under this kind of medication, not this. This is for those times when I want my skin to seem bizarrely luminescent and for the metallic taste in my mouth to accompany my fine doctor pepper. Heavily medicated, I write to you. Post-panic attack. After David left his new job early to [...]
motherfuckin meds
I called into work again. I feel bad for it, but I had no business driving this morning. When I’m awake I feel better, but the challenge is trying to wake up. I snapped again last night, spent the early morning hours watching my recorded episodes of 60 Minutes and CSI (all except Miami, which [...]
when your sleep runs dry
I should rename this blog “Sleepy Meow.” Again, another night without sleep. I woke at 1:30 and went to lay down on the futon in the front room. And I stayed awake for most of the night. I am guessing I got 3-4 hours again. This is going to kill me. Usually when I have [...]
I’ve got a wrist brace and bags under my eyes
I had to finally buy a support brace for my right hand. It’s the one I am having problems with and it’s pain. It’s gray and has some gel insert. A few years ago I bought a flesh colored one and it worked for a bit, but it got dirty and started to gross me [...]
Sometimes I sleep on the couch
Almost every month I have to sleep in the living room at least once. It’s some kind of mental penance and an attempt at keeping my lover out of harm’s way. I admit I can be a bitch about this under normal circumstances, but there’s been a mental release for me. We rode yesterday, walked [...]
1001 Posts for you and you and you
After thought and consideration, I’ve decided that this site needs some honesty. I started blogging to find my own voice and I swim in the darker corners of myself in order to understand my own inner workings. If that elucidates a response from strangers and the known participants in my life – then that’s just [...]
Lack of sleep
I had a manic snap last night and slept on the couch. By the time I realized I wasn’t going to sleep it was almost 3. Too late to take a pill. Too late to walk. Just too damn late. So I am doing okay right now, but I am projecting a sleepy afternoon. I [...]
Don’t be alarmed
The prior post concerned something I had to get off my chest, but it’s locked because I don’t feel like explaining myself. I just needed to get some things off my mind… Onto better things. The scan came back negative for a clot. That’s something to cheer about. And I went and saw the headsrhinker [...]
Protected: Lack of Interest & Distorted Perception
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Listening to a lung
For a while now, I’ve had this sharp pain in my left lung. It grows increasinly worse when I get winded, and I’m getting winded a lot lately. I can’t bike, because it pulses like a fanned ember. It hurts like hell. Well, after some prodding by David, I’ve decided to go to the doc. [...]
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